Ever notice the difference between what you SAY and what you DO? For years, you "preached" about how the law states that divorce resolution is 50/50 regarding marital property and now what are you doing? You are not the man I married, that's for sure. I guess I'm not the woman you married either, since you abused me for your own amusement in so many ways. I'm coming back though...and WILL be back to my old self soon. I have friends and family who stuck by me, even when I was agoraphobic due to your aggressive mental abuse of my mind. They are helping me to slowly regain my forward movement and reach back into the back of my mind to recover things like my love of reading, my extensive vocabulary and the arts of drawing and painting...as well as my love of nature and walking for hours alone or with friends.
You cannot reach my mind anymore and had better not come in direct or indirect contact with me. There are laws protecting me, as well as people who love me and will be there for me when needed. Unlike yourself, pushing away friends and family alike while actively seeking out things to look upon as negative...I'm reaching OUT to friends and family, telling them what happened to me during the 11 years of subtle and progressive mental and emotional abuse you dished out while seeming to be the loving husband I thought I had married. It took me about 3 years to realize you had changed and I tried and tried to get you to find help, with or without me. Instead you refused and continued to move on into the dark abyss you find yourself in now, dragging me along because I wouldn't quit trying to save you and myself, as well as our marriage.
Well, that's done now....feel free to move on with your life. I hope you find peace and happiness.
I forgive myself and you and anyone who was involved in perpetuating our descent into anger and frustration that was mutually wounding.
